25/02/2010 Thursday
SUMMARY
on Wednesday, after losing the bet to Zhixuan, i felt so petrified coz i gonna to have forfeit and the forfeit is to hug Breyl on Wed, ppl may ask,"what are you betting wid him?"
Well ... that is a secret, you can ask zhixuan for what am i betting wid him Thankfully, it is in the Design and technology period that time thus, breyl is not there coz she is in Home Economic
I hoped that Zhixuan will forget on Thursday but he diden forget it,instead he came and remind me to hug Breyl...my heart sank onto the bottom of the heart as he still remember it. he told me to hug her at the foyer but i said a lotta person thus he ask me to hug her at recess, class 1E
i hope zhixuan will forget but he diden, he push me to breyl and ask me to hug her coz he said is a forfeit, i force myself not to come close to her but i cannot, zhixuan and his gang was there pushing me to her then suddenly i slipped and i hug her which i dun want it of course...\
the only thing i can see from breyl face was angry, disappointment, embarrassed etc
i felt sorry for her,coz she lost her 'face' in front of a lotta ppl(in class 1E)
i wanna say sorry to her but i scared she will lose her face again and started to cry as i could see her watery eye and innocent face.
i type all the 'thing' here is bcoz i dun want to tell breyl about what i type in this post but i cannot cannot say coz i will feel guilty and i felt so much better when posting here
IN CONCLUSION, WHETHER YOU BELIEVE OR NOT, BUT I STILL HAVE TO SAY, ME AND BREYL ARE NOT GF AND BF, WE ARE JUST NORMAL FRIEND AND I DUN WISH TO END OUR FRIENDSHIP JUST FOR THIS RUMOUR OR THIS THING COZ I WAS BEING FORCED
I DIDEN REALLY WANNA DO THAT I wanna cry, i wanna kill myself,i gonna be emo soon!!!
argh i am in the MAC Lab now and i am CRYING now!!!
Hope that daiz are better and breyl and i will be friends, not 'that' relationship -_-,
my love story begins at 3:19 PM ♥
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